Tuesday, December 16, 2008

So You Wanna Be Popular

I haven't put anything new up in awhile because I have had this creative block. Plus I didn't have anything to interesting to discuss or let alone write. Well anywhos...I finally had something to write about. As I was driving home after taking one of my finals I listened to this song by Taylor Swift. I am not a huge country fan but by far she is tolerable and I enjoy her music because she writes most of her songs. The song that came on was called "The Best Day" I love the song because it tells a story about growing up. Friday night I got to spend time with my sister. We were talking about her up coming birthday and middle school. She told me about the boys she is crushing on and how her friends don't talk to her. I told her about my middle school friends that I hung out with and then told her about this guy that I had a huge crush on. I thought she was just going to blow off what I said,but she surprised me. She asked me what life was like in middle school and how high school was for me. She said that she wished she was more popular. I told her that the boy that I crushed on was mean to me after he found out that I liked him and said some pretty hurtful things. That the group of girls I hung out with were mean to me as well. I told her about my 7th grade birthday sleep over. How one of them caused a huge fight to the point that my mom had to come out and sleep in the living room while half of the other girls and I slept in my room. How another time my friend that I drove home with ditched me and I walked all the way home in the rain. That later when I talked to her she laughed. I told her that middle school was ruff for me because I was still figuring out my sense of style and was going through an awkward stage. I was a little surfer tom boy chick in middle school. I than told her in high school that the first year was ruff. Discovering make up and finally able to date boys.I said that I didn't have my first real boyfriend til my sophomore year. I also told her I was trying too much to live up to my brother's rep. because he was popular and well I was not.  I told her sophomore year I finally was with the in crowd and was made cheer captain but I than went on to tell her I realized the ugly side of the whole popular thing. I told her about how in between class I watched my friends purchasing drugs and taking them at school. How they teased me about being such a goodie. That one of the popular girls would bring alcohol to school. That there was so much peer pressure and thought this is not what I want to be around.I decided to stop hanging out with them and went back to my old group of friends from freshman year.I told her I was a lot happier being me and not having to worry about what others think. I told if you had to put a label on what I was in high school I would say "Normal" I would float from group to group talking to friends I made from different "clicks".I went on to say that popularity does not mean anything. The only thing that matters is that you are comfortable in your own skin. I said I was nominated for homing coming court my senior year not because I was popular but because I had a good quality of friends. I did not make the actual court but I was shocked that people even nominated me. I said after high school you are just who you are. No label No Contest...Just you. What will cheer captain do for me in the real world? I lightened the mood by telling her that that boy I crushed on for so long wrote in my yearbook Senior year telling me that I looked beautiful at prom and that any guy would be lucky to date me (showing her what he wrote). I cheered her up saying middle school is such an awkward stage for most of the people you know. Just know who you are and be you. Don't try to be someone your not. I told her not to worry that she would find her niche. We had more laughs as I showed her my middle school pictures. I laughed saying "You thought I was always a girlie girl huh." I am glad that I had ruff times growing up and experienced many things in my life because I am able to share them with others. That I am able to relate to my sister about what she is going through.That as I continue to grow I am so appreciative of my parents and their life experiences. I can recall countless nights when I would have deep conversations with my Mom about life, boys and friends. How she always had the right words to say to me to keep me up and going. There is a huge transition coming up for me and I can not help but reflect on how I got to this point in my life, but I am excited to see where the roads of life takes me. I put the lyrics to " The Best Day" down bellow. 

"The Best Day" by Taylor Swift

I'm five years old it's getting cold i've Got my big coat on
I hear your laugh and look up smiling at you I run and run
past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides look now the sky is gold
I hug your leg and fall asleep on the way home

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall 
I know you're not scared of anything at all
don't know if snow white's house is near or far away
but i know i had the Best day with you today

I'm thirteen now and don't know how my friends could be so mean
i come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys 
and we drive and drive until we found a town far enough away 
and we talk and window shop till i forgot all their names

I don't know who i'm gonna talk to now at school
but i know i'm laughing on the car ride home with you 
don't know how long it's gonna take to feel ok 
but i know i had the best day with you today

i have an excellent father
his strength is making me stronger
god smiles upon my little brother 
inside and out he's better than i am 

I grew up in a pretty house and I had space to run
and I had the best day with you

there is a video i found from back when i was three 
you set up a paint set in the kitchen and you're talking to me
it's the age of princesses and pirate ships and the seven dwarfs 
daddy's smart and your the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

now i know why all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side even when I was wrong
and I love you for giving me your eyes 
staying back and watching me shine and i didn't know if you knew 
so i'm taking this chance to say that I had the best day with you today

Thursday, December 4, 2008

2 more weeks

Let me just say this I can't wait for this semester to over with. I don't understand why my professors decided to give a last minute test on top of a final exam! Technically I did not have to take my Spanish exam tonight because my professor drops your lowest test score, but I did anyway. One thing I will miss though is my Spanish class classmates because I liked everyone. Plus there was only 15-17 students in there because it is a late night class. So we got to know each other. I actually enjoyed going to class as well as I love learning new languages. I took 3 years of french and 2 years  of Spanish in high school. I got them mixed up and I was more fluent in French but I barely used the language and soon lost it. I can understand what they are saying I just don't know how to say something back. As for Spanish I never really had that much interest in high school with it even though my Nana used to speak Spanish to me when I was a kid. My goal is to be trilingual because I want to travel. I learned from my Aunt that a lot of or roots from my Mom's side of the family is in France. So I really want to go visit there. The good thing about Spanish and French is that there are a lot of similarities. I can tell though that school is taking a toll as the semester is coming to a close. Seems like all I want to do is sleep. 2 more weeks though so I have to keep going along.